To justify my posts, here's a tale: If only you knew but I'm not one to share it all.
Picture this photo. Look at that photo. What do you see? Nothing. Empty room, empty bed. For most to see me in real life, recently, I have been stripped of my house, my car, my kids, my pets, my money, my belongings including remains of loved ones, and all I have is a rental car and my camera bag. That's it. My existence is gone and I'm too ashamed. That old saying, *well, at least you have your health!*… well, what the fuck, let's take that too.
To be honest, if I can't get some balls and man up by time I'm let go, figure this out like I have before before minus the basic foundations typically holding me together… I have no doubt my fate will be met in some way.
Who contributed? Well I wish that everyone could go over to my ex-husband Matthew Flavell profile and take him down. He has had a clear calculated and written plan on how to take me out starting with that Aug 2014 photo I posted of him putting a gun in my luggage at Orlando International. He is abusive to our kids, had little to no involvement in their lives until forced recently, wants to ditch this country for Hong kong for a catfish or escape back to Britain. He's simply a coward.
Along with his statements and the state of Florida, they have painted a fake monstrous picture of me, especially when those who have experienced my ex can attest that he has major issues. I have sought out to find my kids a home far away from his hurt. I failed. He stood in open court and told them he did not want his children when I was unable to take care of them, like now.
My battle is on with the state and also my ex. When I drop a bombshell on his world by releasing all the private photos, videos and audio of abuse and scandal I hope it turns someone's head. I got one video where my mom in her final month is laying in bed curled up and he tells her to leave and go back to MI, and follows that by an almost humorous drop to the floor like an infant to have a tantrum.
I'm not going down without a fight even if it's the last ounce of breath I have because I love my kids to death and I want to protect them from him and the hands of the govt. I've always been a fighter, so for me to give up only having the clothes on my back and a camera, wouldn't be me.
But my health was robbed. Going through this for the 2nd time in 3 months is a near impossible thought. Most people would have never survived what happened in March only for me to have a repeat?
In the end, what happens to me by the end of this week is still TBD. It's a struggle that is the makings of a good documentary, but it took til the last minute to even share it. Who knows how much longer I got.
So don't hate. I'm that one who was on top, shared the wealth only to be forgotten at rock bottom. I'm allowed to post a few depressing things every now and then. At least most know, while at the top I sure did share it. I still would split a dollar if i had one. I'm not selfish like my ex. He stole my life from me, as did the state of Florida because the same *matthew flavell* can't possibly do no wrong, he's too nice mindset lies with them. I dont even want anyone to say my last name knowing all that walk with that name in his family are selfish lying frauds.
If only you knew it all…
Originally posted on Facebook on June 7, 2016.
