The devastation only begins when your 5 year old asks when grandma is coming home because she's into my crafting stuff and going to make her something 🙁 I cried my eyes out. I can't drive alone, I burst out crying being alone. It's only been 1 month and 9 days, but as a PTSD sufferer in regards to death and trauma already, I feel like I will be haunted forever 🙁 Oh yeah, and by ambulance the other day, temporary diagnosis of severe congestive heart failure until further testing is done. BNP #'s were over 900. Normal is under 110. How does someone who does everything for everyone, works to improve their health way more than everyone else over the past few years, lost so much weight, end up with that? I don't have high blood pressure and for now, no fluid around lungs or heart. The plus side is…… it could be the key to my 3 year downfall in health. Someday it will get better…. I hope, for my family's sake!
Originally posted on Facebook on March 11, 2014.
