I wish I could see tomorrow right now, but I can't. There is no cry for attention because I don't care about shallow water. I'm failed by time and trusting who I've always valued. Do I want tomorrow, no. I only desire to go down with all knowing I exhausted all means. I am the forgotten. The good one lost in the mix. The vulnerable one taken for most of her life. If I ha d an option, including seeing my kids faces it would save me. But I don't. I don't have a penny left what is, is what it is. There are 2 people I blame, my ex for cutting me out under my legs all for some catfish he's never met in Hong Kong supposedly named josephina Dizon @flavem or just his own desire to never want the 4 kids he's so painfully forced to acknowledge exist the last 3 months. Poor him… the one who sent us homeless, the one whom took away my capability of providing a stable home. The one who painted me as a monster so he could escape this ci u ntry that he was not born too. My downfall rests in his hands and I wish him nothing more than to suffer every second the 16 years I believed I was loved and at the very least b the 14 years he spent destroying my oldest sons Mindset
I can scream and never be heard l, so I'm told. What a bang to go out with.
Originally posted on Facebook on June 9, 2016.
