My mom only has a few days to live. I can only bring her home until it becomes too much physically to handle and until I can no longer mentally handle it and until It's too much for my children to witness. I'm so lost but I'm thankful Julie Happinessisbliss is here with me because I never knew this bombshell would get dropped on me out of know where. At least I have someone to cry too. She's very green in color and the cancer has infiltrated her bone marrow completely. Faith has lost me. I don't know what to do. I'm so happy I moved her down here. She got to see a rocket launch, spend time with us at the ocean, go to St. Augustine and live care free for 6 months. She didn't have to worry about being homeless, cold, without food and power. I need what's left of my family now… I need my sister here… I need my brother here to help with her… I want Rachel Gurtowsky to see grandma once more and stay here so I can have family. I don't care anymore I'm just so lost…..but I made a promise to Julie and Joey that I will still give them the best weekend I possibly can and I'm sorry that this happened. Loneliness is coming and I fear that most. I LOVE MY MOMMY. God help my sorrow.
Originally posted on Facebook on January 31, 2014.
