I guess I'm sicker than I have ever been, and it sucks.

Published on: Nov 1, 2013 @ 2:35 – 
I’m just waiting for life to improve.  I’m very sick, it’s hard to do anything again, except it’s worse.  I only realized it’s worse when we moved to Florida.  All the heavy lifting and cleaning really hit me hard.  For the past 5 months I have had this crazy crack like addiction to lemon ice.   I only just realized that I have “Pica” but it only goes as far as eating ice products.  I don’t eat dirt or play-doh!   I crave ice all day every day.  I start back up the miserable iron infusions again soon and if that don’t work it just starts to feel like I’m a lost cause.   It’s odd because the last time I had a broken wrist and this time I have a broken finger.  They are going to figure out which method of iron infusion to do, which brand, etc.  I told them the last time that the “Infed” system didn’t work. There are others.  My first session will be 5 hours long and they will benadryl me up in case of an allergic reaction.  My iron binding capacity is shit and that means iron don’t bind to my blood well, which is the problem.    I got a handicap placard today though to help me get around easier.   I have passed out twice and been transported to the hospital by ambulance in the twice in the last month.  That is way too much.  I want to feel better, I want to exercise and ride bikes.  Right now it seems like vacuuming will kill me.  Chronic iron deficiency anemia can at times be life threatening, not because of anemia but because of the symptoms that show up.  If I pass out, I start out feeling like someone is squeezing my head and then I blackout.  It’s because my blood doesn’t carry enough oxygen to my brain.
If I could get my mind in order I can get back on track with photography and be able to write again without taking 2 weeks to write a post.  This post started on 10/16/13 @ 4:49p.m. and it’s now Nov. 1st.
Hopefully my next post won’t be too far off and hopefully my mind will work and I can shoot one out in a few minutes rather than a few weeks soon!  And yes, I know my website is messed up royally.  I can’t do much to improve it right now I have so many things going on.