Waking up to the reality of death and dying around me is not something I enjoy. I am not strong enough right now to deal with anything and all I have is fear. I kind of feel all alone in a giant bubble. Needless to say I can't wait to go to the doctors. I must mention that I hate winter with a passion and all this snow isn't helping my mood, especially the new 4-7" we could get tonight. Agh.
Originally posted on Facebook on February 24, 2011.
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