Why does God hurt me?

I’ve had a month of life, death, tragedy, and now I have ended 2015 and December with a broken back 🙁  I don’t know what to do, I’m so alone.  The events unfolding since Christmas are too much for most to handle.  But now, a broken back.  I can’t believe it. I can’t walk, i’m in extreme pain, and I don’t know how to take care of my kids.  I was assured that it will be a very long painful road, maybe more painful if I have to have surgery to remove bone shards from around my spine.
I have been in the hospital a lot.  I lost a huge part of me on Christmas, and it took it’s toll on my general health until it happened.  I’m scared for 2016.  I’m petrified.