Who do you talk too when…

Published on: Nov 15, 2014 @ 0:29 – 

Who do you talk too when you come to the sudden realization that last Christmas your mother used her last check to buy 75% of the Christmas decorations and she died horribly shortly thereafter?  I said we should put our Christmas stuff out, and then I realized, most of it was lost in our move and my mom wanted to replace it all.  She bought most of my tree ornaments, she watched my daughter make a glass bulb for it.  My first REAL tree was for my mom last year.  How do I put it all up without the reminders of how beautiful I did everything last year.  I don’t want to put it all up, I’m scared at my reaction. 🙁

Then I think about pictures like this that I was reminded in during the video in my last post… This is everything I once had. Not much, but just enough for me.  Now I have nobody, and that is an awful feeling 🙁