Happy Post: Where to move!?
Published on: Jan 29, 2015 @ 10:54 –
Next step is figuring out where I’m going. I’m not going back to Michigan. The calls have been flooding in for me to come home. Home is not in Michigan. I may have lived 33 years of my life there, but it’s not my home. I have friends there, but nothing that holds me there. Why suffer through awful winters when I don’t have too. I left for more than just a few reasons. Sure, if my mom and grandma were still alive, Michigan would be “home”. But I have no family now. In fact, i’m 4 days shy of the 1 year anniversary of my moms death here in FL. I’m trying not to think about it. I don’t want to think of the word cancer, it kills too many around me and i’ve had my own close calls. So the situation with Matt serves as a small positive that at least I can laugh at him and not cry over my mother.
I don’t have a lot of time to sort things out. I don’t suppose I have time to grab a mortgage. I hear the Atlantic coast calling my name, somewhere. Maybe. I don’t know, there is nothing holding me to Central Florida. If someone begged me to stay, I suppose that would be a mitigating factor, but unlike many years past, I have nobody saying, “Stay Jen!!! Don’t go!!!” LOL. Those people are in Michigan.
All I care about is good schools and better yet, good teachers. Good teachers are hard to find I think. To take on the challenges my Caitlyn is presenting I need an awesome teacher. Her teacher now is probably pretty good. Overall I hate Lake County. I’m pretty sure Matt hates Lake County now, but I could give a fuck less what he thinks. In fact, I don’t have to stay near him, he HAS to follow me like a lost puppy dog. I don’t give 2 shits whether it’s not-so-affordable where I choose to live for him, that’s his fault. I could care less if he ever sees his kids again, he doesn’t deserve too, but I gave him the minimum nights I felt he SHOULD have them to keep his title as father. I could have upped his responsibility, because in the great state of Florida, if I actually upped his time to see him, that also UP’S his child support to me, which is a strangely weird quirk in the support system. But since i’m not after the money, i’m more after the principle and cutting him out from under his own legs, I didn’t cut into his wallet even more. I’m not selfish. I am spiteful. I have to skewer him with his parents, so I think them throwing their own kid in jail partly accomplished that. I’ll finish the job when I seek out and destroy for daring lie about me.
So where to move….. hmm. On my list is Davenport, Dr. Phillips, Windemere, and pretty much anywhere along the Atlantic Coast just to keep me close to NASA, or a direct line to NASA. I don’t care for the gulf coast, and I’ve never been truly fond of it. Central Flordia and more specifically Davenport only to keep my kids slightly closer to their current schools, though, I’m not so sure that’s going to happen. A mortgage will come in time, probably a $350K budget then, but until then, I have to settle for normal… whatever that may be.
All I have right now are imaginary friends. It’s very difficult to understand what it’s like to have friends that can’t even admit your existence on this planet because I’m a threat. I’m not a threat, people just ‘create’ the facade that I am a threat. I know people see me as valuable – multiple do, but just imaginary to the real world. I’m the most visible invisible threat in the world 🙂 Interesting person I am apparently!
My life is starting, and I can finally be an adult, while continuing to improve my own self. I don’t need to go through another degree program, but why not. I always need a challenge. And well, if no man is there to challenge me, I gotta find alternatives to keep my mind young. I never had a chance to be an adult, it’s time to live.
