What’s Happening – Week ending on 9/22/2019

I could rant a million times over regarding how much I hate the state of Florida and the courts here, but I’ve said enough this week.  The two idiots killed it when they sent in the most ridiculous parenting plan that I could only hope shows the courts their abuse of my kids and how it’s all about money.  That had to be the actual highlight of my week except for as always, seeing my kids and picking them up from school.

This week has been ridiculously slow.  I’ve been so tired, and spent a couple days grouchy saying things I should never say.  I honestly don’t know what’s wrong.  I have not been back to the hematologist since my two weeks of treatment, and likely, my blood levels are tanking again.

I take this one medicine called Trazadone for sleep, since I’m a famous insomniac and well, Ambien stopped working like 3 years ago after being on it 6 years lol.  You’re only supposed to take it for 90 days, and in those 90 days some weird shit happens…

Anyway, I need to talk to the doctor to see if it’s interfering with my other meds, or causing moodiness.  A long time ago it was regularly prescribed as an antidepressant so everything i’ve read says it can mess you up.

I’ve gained some weight back that is ridiculous as well.  We eat out too much but right now I cook at home our meals much more than ever.  My cooking is fairly healthy.  I don’t fry anything, and I try to keep it overall healthy.  I’m not about to go on a fad diet.  However, we will join a gym this week.  At the very LEAST I can get out of the house and try to gain some energy while toning the muscle that doesn’t exist! 🙂  I have not been good with protein over the last 10 years, and that’s the #1 thing along with Vitamin C and D3 I have not taken. Recently I started having to give myself shots of nutrients through a needle but I need to go back and get refills from my doctor.

In actuality I need a revision of my surgery, but nobody will do it.  I’d hate to have to go overseas or Mexico again for surgery.  The problem is I rarely eat now, and I gain weight, so If I double that problem, i’ll be more deficient in nutrients and probably die, or so I was told.

I’ve also started working on a small Deadpool tattoo on my right thigh. It’s been a while since I’ve gotten out the ink and gun but it’s worth it.  I have a high pain tolerance so it’s not too bad.

Kids have been good this week. Crazy, but good for the most part.  Caitlyn’s new found attitude causes a few problems but i’m limited at the moment on how to deal with that.  Ava is sweet as always, but responsibility has been a challenge this week.  She lost a ring I just bought by playing outside with it on her finger and I have no clue where it is.  It was a cheap ring ($8) but I still loved it.

Jason is Jason still. Tolerant, works a lot, and is failing to keep up with my awake schedule, lol.  If I even see him yawn I say go to bed.  He tries to match my insomnia but he just can’t do it. I don’t allow it on purpose either. 

I stay up late because I am more productive at night.  He can’t stay awake 20 hours a day and work his jobs.

Well… that’s all. I’ll post again if anything stupid happens ha ha.