Today I did something for me for once! :)
Today I did something for me for once. I went to a real doctors office, internal medicine of course. I haven’t had a doctor for everyday stuff since I moved to Florida. The last almost 6 years my medical care has been via an ER, hence me ending up near death several times. I would literally wait til I couldn’t take it anymore before going to the hospital. The nurse practitioner is wonderful, very talkative, open, and just the person I need. Jason likes the doctor too, though I haven’t seen him. In Michigan, I had regular hematology care, and my own team.
I have to live a new future again, and that’s great, so it is time to start caring and not waiting til I need an ambulance. They already know my blood is bad, and said after I get my blood work to expect to hear from them ASAP. She said with excitement, omg, I can’t wait to see your blood results because she see’s my excitement to regain my health and wants to get me back on track and was like, you’ll be back in hematology care likely if what we think is going on is going on. That’s a good thing.
I stopped seeing doctors and hematology after I took my mom to my doctor for oncology in 2014 for her breast cancer near Orlando, and he essentially killed my mom over-medicating her in the hospital (Celebration Hospital – Adventist Health), whom subsequently saved me in 2016 and 2017), then he died shortly thereafter from a brain aneurysm in spring of 2014.
After 10 years almost, I have to return to the bariatric surgeon and hopefully get a revision to fix my stomach. Unlike most patients, whom over time stretch their stomach pouch out, I have an odd problem where the stomach literally doesn’t have a pouch so everything I eat goes straight into my intestines and sometimes I get really sick, unlike prior to the last 6 months. I’m not afraid of having it re-done or converted. But, this could be contributing to my severe deficiencies in B12, Calcium, Iron, and other hematology related issues as well as malabsportion of my medicines, memory loss, etc.
The memory loss is hard for me. While it helps as far as forgetting the traumatizing past, other precious memories are missing. I used to write on my blog routinely, and when I stopped doing that after 16 years, the last 3 years is a blank. Bits and pieces of memories come back from time to time.
So at any rate, consults, doctors, are positively in my future and that’s ok. I’m not dying anytime soon and my health has been much better since last October really.
Honestly, laughter has gotten me through everything that has gone on over the last 5 years. But, I can’t rely on it only anymore.
I stopped seeing doctors and hematology after I took my mom to my doctor for oncology in 2014 for her breast cancer near Orlando, and he essentially killed my mom over-medicating her in the hospital (Celebration Hospital – Adventist Health), whom subsequently saved me in 2016 and 2017), then he died shortly thereafter from a brain aneurysm in spring of 2014.
After 10 years almost, I have to return to the bariatric surgeon and hopefully get a revision to fix my stomach. Unlike most patients, whom over time stretch their stomach pouch out, I have an odd problem where the stomach literally doesn’t have a pouch so everything I eat goes straight into my intestines and sometimes I get really sick, unlike prior to the last 6 months. I’m not afraid of having it re-done or converted. But, this could be contributing to my severe deficiencies in B12, Calcium, Iron, and other hematology related issues as well as malabsportion of my medicines, memory loss, etc.
The memory loss is hard for me. While it helps as far as forgetting the traumatizing past, other precious memories are missing. I used to write on my blog routinely, and when I stopped doing that after 16 years, the last 3 years is a blank. Bits and pieces of memories come back from time to time.
So at any rate, consults, doctors, are positively in my future and that’s ok. I’m not dying anytime soon and my health has been much better since last October really.
Honestly, laughter has gotten me through everything that has gone on over the last 5 years. But, I can’t rely on it only anymore.
