Pregnant!

Published on: Aug 19, 2004 @ 16:18 – 
Hello world, it’s me again. Who really reads my blog anyway? Anyone? Mostly I just write this to keep my sanity, to release the energy in me :o) There are a few out there who peer into my website occasionally!
Anyhow, if you’ve read my webpage Im sure you know that now Im pregnant. Today Im 8 weeks and 5 days along. I still have forever to go (approx. 219 days to go). I can’t wait to emerge from the 1st trimester, which will happen in about 3 weeks (Sept. 15th or so). Of course in the world of pregnancy, your fears never end, or subside. Once I get through the first 12 weeks, I will no longer have the ‘miscarriage’ fears on the mind. I will however, gain a new fear… ‘late miscarriage’ until 20 weeks. When that is over, I have to worry about pre-term labor. So you see, it’s never ending. Even when they are born you still worry that youre going to wake up one morning and your child will have succumbed to SIDS or something. I still check on Chris daily, and worry if he sleeps longer than he should. Mothers I think always have many fears for their children. I am a natural worry wart, and worry not only for my child, but for my family and friends too.
The last 8 weeks has been miserable. The first 4 I contemplated whether or not I wanted this child. I would never abort or give up, but I got depressed for a couple weeks. I don’t know why, this child has always been wanted. The only reason I get depressed is because I was feeling so ill. Not vomiting or having any form of morning sickness, but headaches, dealing with diabetes, nausea, pounding heart beats, etc. They all bother me!
Today I had my first doctor’s appointment. The first of many. I love my doctor so much, he’s a great O.B. They lost my blood work, so they are trying to find that, but other than that, everything is ok so far. I don’t know when Ill get my first ultrasound. I had one the other day, but they were mean at the hospital and wouldn’t let me see. I did however hear the heartbeat. The doctor couldn’t find one today, but that’s completely normal. My next appointment is Thurs. August 26th @ 3:00p.m. for a sugar check. He wants to make sure we don’t need extra treatment for my diabetes. I will update again soon!