New Video: I am NOT afraid. I only fear that thing called fear… itself.

Published on: Jun 18, 2014 @ 22:02 – 
I have been MIA for a while.  Not my fault.
If you can watch this video, understand it, and appreciate it, then you know who I am and the hell I have been through over the past 4 years.   It never ends. I just found out another family member died today.  1 day shy of the one month anniversary of someone blowing their brains out I knew. Four months ago my mother died.  The cycle of death never ends around me, and it is causing me a lot of problems.  I have PTSD, it started many years ago, some of you know why, most don’t.  The list of tragic events in my life is a mile long.  I just want some peace for a couple years, that’s all I need. I need to be happy for a while.  Where I went wrong and why this is all happening to me I have no idea.  I don’t deserve this.  But anyway, yes, I use my fav. Eminem because this video says it all, it really does.  If you are wondering about the circumstances surrounding what happened in the video, ask.  I am targeting individuals out in this video, I will not deny that.  People who have hurt me recently, hurt me in the past, mentored me to only commit heinous crimes, you name it.  You are targeted.  I am stronger than everyone that hurt me because I still stand tall and walk on.
I have had a bad week.  But, the fruits of my labor have proved to be my best work yet.  The entire video belongs to me except obviously eminem, his music video, and the newscast that plays in it.  But all the live action stuff belongs to me, some of the “notes of life” belong to me, it’s my art.  Photography is #1, but YouTube videos come in #2 🙂    Enjoy, try not to take the cussing and “bitch” mode too seriously, because unless you are crossing me the wrong way, abusing me, taking advantage of me, whatever, you’d never see that side of me.  I’m really just a nice sweet person. 
If you can appreciate this, you can appreciate me.