My birthday is tomorrow!
Tomorrow is my 29th birthday… what a way to start out year #29 for me! At least I got it done while i’m still in my 20’s and now when i’m 50 (no offense of course to my OH buddies older than me!). I’m going to make a cake for the rest of my family to enjoy. I might take a lick of frosting, and I won’t feel bad about it, well, unless I dump on it of course. I am going to buy some Breyer’s no sugar added neopolitan ice cream, that way I can at least have something and not feel guilty, and hopefully not dump. It’s got 4g of sugar and 5g of sugar alcohols. I live on sugar alcohols though so that won’t bother me.
I’m a couple days early on my diet plan, but I had a couple small slices of turkey lunchmeat and a slice of swiss cheese for dinner. It was good, and the great thing?! It sat better in my pouch than anything else i’ve eaten. I don’t know what it is, I think my tummy just cannot handle 1/2 cup of food like our plan outlines, but every time I eat 1/2 cup I have to go lay down and let the nausea pass for a half hour. I’m going to cup back to 1/3 cup and see if that makes a difference. Officially we get to start soft foods on Monday, but since the turkey sat well, I’m just going use this weekend to try some turkey breast and really soft cooked chicken. Eggs did ok the first couple tries (I make them very soft scrambled), but the third try they felt really heavy in my belly. As a bandster, eggs never worked with me well. It’s just one of those things. Yet, today I had some egg salad with pretty big chunks that I chewed to mush and it worked good. A pouch is just a fickle thing. I’m very happy.
I do have one depressing thing though… I often find myself wondering if I will ever be able to enjoy food, or look forward to eating a meal. It’s like right now I eat because I have too, not because I want too. Someday I want to be able to eat, just eat healthy, you know? I want to be able to enjoy a meal without having to worry what it’s going to do to me. I’m sure I will, I probably said this to myself 3,000,000 times with my horrible lapband recovery. Yeah I dwell on that time period a lot these days because it was so scary for me.
Great news though…. I am down 25lbs from the day I started my 1 week liquid pre-op diet. Not a huge wow for me because I weighed this weight about a month before I was approved for the surgery, so it took all of this just to lose what I put on between the time I was notified I was approved for surgery, and surgery date! Unbelieveable… yeah I had that last meal syndrome really bad. That period of time just proved to me why I needed this surgery in the first place. I would love to be under 200lbs by time the new year rolls around though, just would make an awesome start to the new year!
I’ll be 3 weeks post-op on Monday though, so far, so good!
