I'm done. I'm going home.

It’s time for me to go home where I belong.  Michigan.  I may not have anything left there except friends, brother and niece, but it’s so much better than being alone in Florida.  I can’t take it anymore.  I’m sorry, I do not like the people in Florida in general.
When I moved to Florida that choice was made on a whim, just like this choice was.  I thought life would be great, I thought the weather was great year round so my mood would be great year round.  I was bringing my mom with me for a better life and have her close.  We were moving near Disney so it had to be a happy place.
I don’t know what happened. Florida has robbed me of everything I have known as “life” and actually robbed me of my mother’s life due to their poor healthcare system.  All my pets have died in strange ways, and I’m just tired of having nobody by my side or care about these things. I am legitimately a nice, sweet, honest, caring person.  The ex-husband apparently felt the need to rob me of my trust factor and i’m having a hard time building that ability back up.  He made me an angry person because of his behavior. I don’t have the issue of being mad all the time now.  It’s miraculous my mental health is so much better now that I don’t have the stress of him in my life.  To be convinced your delusional for thinking something is up with his behavior, to seek help because you are willing to fix that, only to find out you were not delusional whatsoever and it was all real is quite a mentally damaging thing to recover from.
I cannot be alone anymore here in FL with no support system at all.  That hit me real hard the last couple weeks since I broke my back and had other things happen.  The school system is great, they have helped us out a lot, but I can’t rely on them. The school social worker came to my house to check on me yesterday, making sure I have everything I need.
At the very least my brother is in Michigan.  Beyond that, there are my friends.  People i’ve known for a long time. I cannot trust anybody here in FL.  It seems like everyone here is here because they are also running from their problems in their home states too.  It’s weird.
That said, I will go up to MI on the 15th of January, scope out places to live for a few days, come home with my brother, pack up, and be back up north by February 1st. That’s my spontaneous plan anyway.  I told Matt that as long as he pays his bill, he does not have to follow. He don’t want anything to do with the kids anyway so he don’t care if I move 1400 miles away.  I could enforce the 50 mile rule anytime though.  Florida has no state income taxes though, so I told him if I need child care, he is legally required to foot the bill, but I will keep it out of the court system if he can be trusted.  Child care would be less than him moving here and paying state taxes on his income.  In all honesty he cannot be trusted, he screwed over our health insurance on the sly to pocket more money each month… which could hurt his own kids more.  So, we’ll see in time.