Published on: Apr 18, 2007 @ 19:36 –
Today in the mail I received two giant boxes filled with baby stuff! In it was 30 mini bottles of Johnsons night time message gel, 24 bottles of Johnsons nourishing lotion, 24 bottles of Johnsons Stress cream, 12 jars of coconut oil (love those stretch marks!), a giant bag of Huggies size 3 diapers (perfect for my baby) and another bag of Huggies size 3 overnights. There was also a container of Huggies wips along with a pack of wipes to refill it. Kleenex provided a roll of toilet paper and a box of tissues. Oh, and a Baby Einstein dvd.
See….. sweeping really does pay off. I’m going to donate the diapers to Julie’s cause and she can have as many bottles of whatever that she wants.
I have been at peace with myself and others for the last couple days. I made my apologies and I hope we can move on from this to greener pastures.
I have not eaten in two days. I feel like blah and i’m just not hungry. I’ve been on a weight plateau now for 4 months despite me working out. I was certainly hoping to be under 200lbs by now, but I still 20lbs to go. That was my goal for our trip. At least I know I won’t need a seatbelt extender anymore! I made an appointment to see the nurse practitioner on Friday… maybe she can give me something. I’ll also request an anxiety prescription so I don’t have a heart attack when the plane takes off or goes through turbulence. I hate flying with a passion, and that’s funny because my husband is a pilot. 9/11 made my fears worse. The flight to London is usually very nice though. I get panic stricken as soon as the seatbelt light comes on and god forbid the captain comes on and says we’ll be going through turbulence. If I don’t get medication I will purposly overdose on NyQuil to knock me out… it worked once before. Alcohol has an increased effect at 30,000 feet. Ok if not the NyQuil, you get free liquor on British Airways so i’ll get drunk that way. Call me stupid but I am terrified!!
I’m gonna go to Julie’s tonight and donate my products to her… I need to see the baby fishies as well! They are growing big so I hear.
I must go make my husband his dinner – he gets very upset when I don’t want to eat or can’t eat. Food is our main argument most of the time. Since I have a lapband I can’t eat much anyway, and what I do eat sometimes I vomit it up. He doesn’t like that too much and feels guilty. I keep telling him not to feel guilty about eating in front of me.
One thing i’m looking forward too when we go to the UK is stopping at the Oxford Welcome Break (very large rest areas with shopping and food), and eating at the Red Hen and having some fried toast with beans and a poached egg. Yeah it sounds horrific but that is my favorite British meal. The sausage is horrible, I would never recommend because it has no spices in it! Their bacon is awesome though, they don’t use the “streaky” variety that we are used to… instead they use back bacon which more like a piece of canadian bacon with a piece of streaky bacon attached to it. Yummo… and watch, i’ll get there, have my favorite meal in front of me, and turn around and won’t be able to eat it! That or i’ll puke it up. My lapband will be 2 in July so this is my first trip to the UK after having it.
Ok my new goal…. under 200 by August and I will work out at least 4 times per week. I am getting back on track again and have been doing a good job the last couple weeks! Wish me luck…