While I don’t have my children today for Thanksgiving, I am looking forward to reuniting with them in less than two weeks! This is the first “family” holiday for me since probably 2011. It just never was the same after my grandmother died, and then my mom dying in 2014. My ex has stolen from me my children since September 2017 and i’ve missed birthdays and holidays.
It’s such a good feeling to have two sides to a family that actually like me. I was so paranoid for so long meet Jason’s parents and extended family because since 2000 my ex-husbands snotty British family hated me from day 1 just because I didn’t meet their appearance standard and then of course I brought him to the USA. They never should have hated me, since I was the one doing all the thinking and remembering of them and not my ex. I shopped for them, thought about and remembered all their birthdays and he could care less. I have this one video clip post-divorce having my ex speak honestly about who I am, and my personality without being held captive, lol. He really had nothing bad to say, except when he stares into the camera and says “She always gets what she wants.” Of course that can sound bad, but it truly means I am passionate about making sure things are done the way I think they should be. Of course, marriage was over, and I got what I wanted out of the divorce.
Jason’s family actually thinks about me. I’ve been joined in hospital ER by his step-mom Eldona, and Jason has been with me every step of the way. It’s nice to have someone by your side. I literally have to make him tell me no to a lot of things, but I wouldn’t be where I am at today without him.
Yesterday, I chose to apply and enroll in the Graphics Technology program at Eastern Florida State College, then eventually transfer to University of Central Florida or Embry Riddle Aeronautical for a more science backed program. I love to aerospace industry. I’m still in the process of requesting transcripts from high school and college, but look forward to the Spring 2019 semester.
Yesterday I also got my FitBit Charge 3 special edition in the mail. It measures everything about me including my sleep patterns, which as anyone who reads back in my blog would see I’ve been struggling with sleep for about 12 years. This breaks down my sleep stages (i.e. REM, deep sleep, light sleep, wake), so it was interesting to see how I slept last night. Last night I had 2 stages of REM which helps memory and brain function. I’ve suffered from a lot of memory loss since nearly dying in 2016 at the hands and blame of my now 16yo son.
Today we are having dinner at Jason’s aunt and uncle’s house in Viera… it will be my first time there. The menu is prime rib and turkey, and I’m cooking the turkey! I always have great turkey’s but there’s always a nervous factor when you cook for others for the first time.
I held father’s day here at the house, and while my homemade honey baked ham and food was good, it was too good for me so I made sure we all started eating, and about 5 minutes in, I had to excuse myself from the table and they never saw me the rest of the evening because I got so sick of my very delicious meal. I’m usually careful about what I eat when it’s just Jason and I, but I cook like I know how to cook when it comes to serving others.
I have a lot to be thankful for this Thanksgiving and I am hoping for a completely positive holiday season after December 5th… which is when I will surely be reunited with my children.
That’s all for this Thanksgiving!