OMG…. I’m 31 weeks pregnant, I’ve only gained 5 lbs total, yet I feel like I felt when I weighed 320lbs…. I am 90lbs less than that today, but I feel sooooooo gross. I don’t have that perfect round belly I was expecting since I lost all the weight. When I was fatter I had a rounder belly. When I go to the doctors, it’s like they are ‘mushing’ around to find my uterus! It’s like this baby is filling in all the hanging gross skin I have. My face is back to breaking out like crazy, I have heartburn like crazy, and on top of it all, anytime I eat anything and I sit down, I can feel my uterus/baby pressing up against my lap-band/stomach and it makes me want to barf. I have nightly RLS problems… (restless leg syndrome) which just started in the last couple weeks, and it’s more aggravating than anything else.
Nobody even knows I am pregnant…. sure I can make myself look that way. All I get is ‘wow, you’re pregnant, you look really good for being pregnant, you can hardly tell’… yeah, I don’t know whether or not that is a good or a bad comment. I can honestly say I hide it well too I guess… I wear my coat everywhere, obviously it’s winter. I could probably still fit into my pre-preggo pants, but I choose to not even try. I feel bloated as heck. I can’t wait until it’s over with already. When this is all over with that gain of 5lbs will turn out to be a loss of probably 10-15 lbs because I have been working hard to not gain too much. I tend to retain a heck of a lot of water weight with pregnancy and usually within a week of having the baby I drop a lot.
I can’t wait til I can start working out again 3-4 times weekly. My legs are getting bloated looking and mushy. I liked it when I could walk 2.5 miles a day. Now I can barely get across the room. I can’t start any form of working out until April. I need recovery time from the c-section. I have lost a ton of muscle mass in the last 7 months of doing nothing.
I’m sick of being sick with thick nasal mucous causing me to cough and gag on myself. Please oh please let time fly by!
Ah well… that’s my rant for now.
I start my twice weekly non-stress tests for baby next week… that usually helps make time fly. It’s good because I get to get hooked up to the baby monitors so they can check for contractions and listen to the heartbeat for 30 minutes. They make sure everything is ok. I could do that at home, I have a doppler that I rent, but I haven’t had to use it in a while. It only comes in handy when you haven’t felt movement in a while. Fortunately, I have a kickboxer in me so I rarely have to pull it out.
Well Christmas is in a few days, things are ok. I’ve got 99% of my shopping done now. I still can’t figure out what to get my grandma or my mom. What do you buy a 90 year old woman who doesn’t really need anything? My mom is another issue altogether. We’re having a honeybaked ham for dinner on Christmas because my mom, who is a security guard at MGM Grand in Detroit, was given a gift certificate to there by some stranger as they were walking out the door. My mom was like, ‘I guess asians don’t eat ham on Christmas’… because the lady was of asian decsent. I’ll probably make some au gratin potatoes, extra cheesey of course.
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow. We’re supposed to get upwards of 10 inches of snow tonight and tomorrow on top of the 3-4 we already have on the ground. For once Chris and I aren’t looking forward to it because he was so looking forward to going to see Tales of Despereaux with his class tomorrow… now they have postponed it regardless incase of a snow day. He’s been counting the days on the calendar, and let’s just say… it figures. The last day before Christmas break. Now they have to wait until Jan. 9th. For all cripes sake, they better have a snow day tomorrow because if they end up going to school and not going to see the movie, Chris will be more than bummed. Watch, this will turn out to be a wintry mix event and not snow… that would also ‘just figure’.
I can’t wait to take down my Christmas tree. We woke up this morning to find it overturned onto the floor. Now my tree looks pathetic, as it usually does about a week before Christmas, with branches bent and stuff. I don’t feel like fixing it. We suspect Bella had something to do with the tree being overturned. My other two cats are either too fat, or too lazy. Jack likes to try and overturn the tree daily because he likes to sleep under it. A 105lb golden retriever tries to squeeze back there and under it, and when he gets excited to run to the door, he takes the tree with him. We lost two glass bulbs this morning…. two of like 5 we own and are on the tree. They were both my annual bulbs from Bronner’s. Grr. My inflatable Santa out front has some major erection issues. We turn him on and every night we have to go out there and adjust his ropes to get him to stand up straight. We can’t possibly be the only family with Christmas decoration issues! Like i’ve said before… someday i’ll have the perfect set up!
As for other things… my mom got me this great new recliner for Christmas! We got it at Art Van and it’s microsuede and so comfortable. I feel like an overprotective mother to it, because we are used to leather, which is easy to clean. My dirty boys are not allowed to sit in my chair until they’ve washed their hands and faces. I’m constantly cleaning it to keep it tidy. It’s beige in color and so susceptible to stains. I’m scared for it to say the least! I certainly beats out the craptastical glider we’ve been using since I threw out my old Lazyboy recliner, which was way past it’s prime. I have tailbone pain issues in pregnancy, and neither of those suited my butt well. I’m in heaven now. Instead of changing seats every 10 minutes due to pain, I can at least sit in this chair for an hour or two before moving to a different seat.
I had my 3D ultrasound the other day, and I was petrified when I went back because I was so scared she wouldn’t cooperate. All I had been thinking about the previous two weeks was that she was still facing my back and I wouldn’t be able to get a pic and i’d lose my $229. It turned out wonderful though! She’s so cute, and definitely looks like her brother. The only thing now is that I picture a baby coming out of me with a black eye, black nose, and black lips… because that’s how she looked on ultrasound, even though it was just how the ultrasound rendered the images. Kinda freaky sometimes. If you haven’t already done so, the new pictures are located in my baby album, and the video is posted as a bulletin. It was so sweet to see her yawn and stretch out!
I still haven’t bought anything for this baby yet. I promise though sometime in the next month I will get out and get excited to spend money, buy clothes, carseat, bassinet, and all that wonderful stuff. I’m just not motivated at the moment! I went to Walmart today and started to get excited at seeing ruffle butt tights, but I held back, waiting until after Christmas to buy.
Well I’m gonna go to bed now… ranting of course! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! 