Published on: Oct 16, 2014 @ 5:48 – 
The jist of this video is don’t take advantage of me, use me, walk all over me, and ignore my kindness and friendship. I could say this video is mostly just playing around with pictures of my eyeballs and “seeing into my thoughts” sort of, except it’s not.  It’s dedicated to my slimeball husband and his family, as well as any family I have that sucks which is most of them. Anyhow, I experiment a lot with Adobe Premiere and different effects and transitions.  The first 2 minutes is good for most people… but I think my point gets made without even having to read the contents of the rotten ecards and stuff 🙂 ha ha.   I just wanted to use my new theme song in a stupid and unproductive way. How better else than to vent my frustrations with 1/4 of all the rotten ecards and other web images I collect that actually mean something 🙂 LOL. POP QUIZ: Find all the hidden meanings of my new logo. If you know me, you’ll get it. I’ll help you out, my name is frozen like ice for a reason. There is also text in there, but you probably have to watch in HD to see it. I try to run the ecards to the beat of the song, but not quite sure how that worked out… I slow down and speed up on purpose. But, the song speaks volumes to every single person who’s ever taken advantage of me, used me, taken me for granted, and pre-judged me… ever. I generally hold no grudges except in these circumstances. That goes for anyone that originates in or around 70 Doveridge Road, Birmingham, England or anywhere in the West Midlands except for my husbands aunt’s, and any person with the last name Hilliard (except for 2), my mom’s disgusting twin brother Kevin Stegall and any remaining people I’ve dissociated with over time.

There is absolutely no better way for me to “voice” my frustrations than to do it to a little angry Eminem music 🙂 ha ha.  I am probably the only semi-normal mom to four kids, who isn’t ghetto, doesn’t do drugs, not in an insane asylum, not in jail… that knows the lyrics by heart to most all of his songs, including his Guinness Book record breaking “Rap God” (Record amount of words in a short period of time).  Now to visually see me whipping out some rap god… no.  The mind works, the mouth doesn’t which is why I don’t speak.  In my mind I can sing along with him, but I get all tongue tied if I try to speak it.  Now, Berzerk, Lose Yourself, Not Afraid, and Toy Soldiers I can happily blurt out any day.  In fact I’ve probably got some nice embarrassing footage of me at the 2 concerts doing just.  The 2nd night I had a 3 man protection detail behind us, Detroit PD.  I was all filming, and doing my thing and I happened to turn around as I was filming the crowds and instead of doing their job, my DPD members had their cell phones out taking video of me, so when I turned around, and noticed, he waved at me in embarrassment.  I hope that video isn’t on YouTube… lol.
Toy Soldiers describes my life scenario as it has played out. Berzerk is how I’ve felt since February. Not Afraid represents how I feel now.  Lose Yourself represents the independence I am learning to have and hold.  Till I collapse is just my life song.  Nothing has taken me down and out yet.  Not a person, not my health, not betrayal, not death or illness, nothing.  How I have done that, I have no idea.  I have had absolutely no support system in place ever.  I guess that is why everything comes out in writing and in music or videos.  I have nobody to rely on.
This mashup of the movie 8 mile (which I haven’t seen, don’t plan on it), Eminem’s Lose Yourself video that went with that movie, my custom opening footage mashed up with the concert footage and concert audio I’m hoping will get a lot of attention.  It’s only been on YouTube a short while and it already has more views than a normal video would.  It is in extreme 4K HD, which does not mean the footage is 4K quality, it just means you can play it on a 4K TV without it getting all blocky and choppy.  Typical HD is 1080p….this is 2160p LOL.  If you do it, you gotta go big.